Just some mundane thoughts.

I feel far from myself. And I know why. I’m not in my creative work routine. I often wonder if the secret to success is as easy as having a routine. A few factors are contributing to this distraction. Year-end duties like figuring out new car insurance, health insurance, possibly moving to a new place. But I know I can always write and post something, even if it’s a few lines. I get caught up in thinking it needs to be something really awesome to be worth posting. But maybe the mundane is the most interesting stuff we can offer each other in the blogosphere. So, my mundane:

–I’m considering moving out of my apartment. I’ve been here 5 years and it’s time for a change. But I keep running up against memories. Just now making chicken on my George Foreman grill, I remembered agonizing if I should get the grill with removable plates or not. It was $20 more, but would be so much easier to clean. Which got me thinking about how much I’ve changed in the five years I’ve lived here. I moved in poor as a pauper, $20 might have been $2000. I’ve gone through a lot here–breakups, hookups, surgery, dance parties, Koreatown Cabarets, tears and fighting, first kisses and last goodbyes. I have done a LOT of writing here. I wrote a novel here for fuck’s sake. I’m an eyelash away from leaving, but that also means leaving that all behind. Which I don’t feel totally ready to do.

–This year has been a rollercoaster for the creative projects. Had my series Johnny and the Scams picked up by a big studio, then dropped when the executive left the company. I started a new vlog and finished writing a thriller feature and co-writing an hour long pilot. Yet I feel totally unsatisfied. Soooooooooooooo many stories in my mind, battling to be told. Yeah, that many “o’s” on the “so.”

–I’ve started volunteering with WriteGirl, a rad non-profit that does creative writing programs for teen girls. I’ve been working with the in-schools part of the program, and every Tuesday we go to a girl’s academy in south LA and do poetry, journaling, goal-setting, this sort of thing with the girls. I’m endlessly humbled, especially with how smart and talented the girls are. Some of them write prolifically. I remember being that age, feeling like I had more emotions than I could possibly express.

–I feel like I don’t want to party anymore. I turn to wine and other mind alterers when I’m not writing. Because I wish I was writing so much I need to blast all thoughts out of me. So why don’t I just write? Bukowski, Hemingway, any ideas?

–I might get a kitten!

Those are a few mundanes things of my current life. Hope it slightly intrigued you, if just in a mundane way. Good bye.

4 responses

  1. Scott Diament

    You are amazing

    You are so smart

    You are so thoughtful

    You are unique

    You are really really special

    Erin, even though you don’t know me well, I connect with you and appreciate you.

    Have a super Sunday.

    Sincerely, Scott

    Sent from my iPhone

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    December 7, 2014 at 8:34 am

    • Scoot! Thank you most sincerely for taking the time to read my post and write such a kind comment. I remember what a special being you are as well! All your inventions! For those days I’m feeling dull and down, I will look at this comment. 🙂

      December 7, 2014 at 10:35 pm

  2. Thank you for sharing your mundane thoughts. It’s good to know that someone else struggles with the whole “I can’t write anything until I have something amazing to share” concept. But you’re right, it’s the mundane thoughts that connect us and encourage each other.

    December 7, 2014 at 4:50 am

    • Yes Sarah I think the mundane is why we love blogs so much, we get a peek at each other’s mundane inner worlds! If we wait for brilliance it might never come, when really is was there all along, in the simple stuff. 🙂

      December 7, 2014 at 10:36 pm

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